I’ll post on here again, maybe.. I feel like it wasn’t doing anything for me, but I just had a great meal, and I want to share it with you all. ^-^
TWAS..
~green smoothie made of kale, almond milk, banana, and a green powder :)
~green beans with nutritional yeast
~a sweet potato
~a matzo (I feel the need to end meals with starch??)
Maybe I should have taken a picture. Hmm.. I wasn’t exactly thinking of this account though. I’m sick of trying to lose weight like a brainwashed asshole. I’m happy with HOW I look.. I just want to be able to stay healthy.. stop binging.. etc.
:) xx
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
Where has my self-control gone?
I am actually happy with myself, but I would like to be thinner.
So.. from yesterday to today, I gained 10 pounds.
I ate shamelessly in NYC all day yesterday.. I never felt ‘sick’ although I did feel ‘satisfied’.
(And this is when I should stop eating.. ugh)
I just love to try everything.. that is a major problem of mine. .=. I love everything!
It is so dang unhealthy to yo-yo with my weight like this. I am looking to eat clean from now until next Saturday (which is the mermaid parade, ye). I’m hoping to take things week by week, perhaps. These sort of adventures into NYC overwhelm me, and I want it all. I shouldn’t let it destroy my body, grrrrr….
Yeah, so.. today.. I have work, but I kinda want to fast. I will just eat sparingly since I am also on antibiotics now.
Meep. I am not sure. Once I am at my goal weight, I am going to be on top of gaining like a champ. Right now, I’ve been maintaining my weight but… it’s more like I’m maintaining its range (146-149). I guess that isn’t bad.. but going from 149.8 to 159.8 issssss… UGH *_*!!!! (Yes, it is temporary.. but also very upsetting D;)
Anyway, I’m looking to fall into the 140-145 range. Maybe pushing for the 135 is too much right now.. cmon lower 40s! D;
Just made some macaroni and cheese, vegan style. :3 Didn’t really enjoy it as much as I anticipated. Happy to see I am no longer in luv with cheese. ;D
Anyway, an update.. I pulled a muscle in my lower back while exercising somehow, so I have been feeling like complete poop. Trying to heal myself with junk food and lounging in bed all day with Animal Crossing. I’m naughty. ^~^
P.S. Still, I had a green smoothie to accompany my mnc. ;)
^______^
I now have a job at a waterpark as a photographer. I begin (officially!) tomorrow morning. I’m excited and quite delighted to have so much busy time. It keeps me away from food/binging/such. But, it also keeps me away from exercising. :( I’m already feeling a wee anxious because I only exercised around an hour today. *_* GOLLY, I will do as I can. :) Sleep is more important, and since I must be up before 9am.. it will be mandatory ;)!
TOODOO!!
~Sleep earlier
~Eat less wheat
~Bake less desserts (I go overboard)
~Yoga more (cmon flexibility!!!)
~READ MORE, LEARN MORE!!
~Talk to Stony Brook/someone about shadowing
~Talk to a vet about shadowing, too
~STUDY FOR THE MCATS
~Go to Bideawee more often
~Make almond milk ^_^
~Water my plants u.u
~Find wheatgrass
~Sprout, sprout, sprout
~Maybe go to the mermaid parade? (PLEASE?)
~APPRECIATE LIFE AS IT COMES.. :) (truly getting there :}}})
Meep. 149.6 pounds. I am not too unhappy because I know I overate yesterday with the cheese. Today was a better day.. mistakes happen. :)
I cannot help but be proud of my bruises.
Enjoy the noche. xx
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~5’9” but I like to say I am 5’10” :D Doctors always tell me different numbers u.u Why do you ask, dear anon? ^.^
My messy hairs and I are so happy with today. It didn’t start out well (I won’t even say why because it is kinda irrelevant now), but things really worked out smoothly.. beyond smoothly! Wonderfully! Maybe it’s because I took a much needed nappypoo. ^_^ I forget how happy they can make me (although I had two ‘nightmares’). Anyway, I am feeling so good about my health right now. I just ate a delicious meal of cucumber, carrot, cilantro, and broccoli tossed with a gyoza sauce. MMM! Delicious. I also had my much loved smoothie made of kale, banana, and almond milk. SO DARN GOOD.. and simple. ;)
I went to subway earlier today with my brother, and our order for two footlongs came to OVER $16. Lameo! I couldn’t believe it. I’m never going again, especially since the sandwich was something I easily could have done without.. gosh, well, I guess I will go again. It’s a much better option than other fast food establishments. I just feel as though I am being punished for choosing veggies only. For some reason, they don’t seem to understand that avocado is cheap.. it shouldn’t be a blessing/luxury to put on your sub. They cost ~$1 each in most grocery stores, so why is it a $1.50 to put two darn scoops on my sub? I didn’t even get a veggie patty, meat, or cheese.. lame, lame, lame.. I’m just a lady who much rather make her meals. I’m a critic. Not to mention, the sub had WAY more calories than my dinner AND breakfast combined. u.u Bread is evil, maybe.. don’t tell the breads because I am still fond of them. xx Now, it is time to exercise, learn physics, and love life some more! ^_^
